Entrapped by you: my heart and soul,
Broken into halves, yet seems as a whole.
Screeching and whimpering, awake all night,
No peace of mind, no savior on sight.
A moment of silence, then continues the noise,
Inaudible, yet the presence breaking my poise.
Imagination faking the basis of reality,
Normal in the world's eyes yet filled with insanity.
Illusion fills the restless core of my mind,
Though somewhere I know I have left you behind.
Embracing you close and feeling your presence,
Do I hear your voice in the stillness of silence?
Close to me, in my arms you lay,
In my thoughts sharing my misery you stay.
Yet when the eyes open and I seek your hand,
The loneliness I feel, I cannot understand.
In the mirage of life, companionship I see.
The reality though crashes, forcing me to percieve
The lonliness that engulfs my entire soul,
Choking the life out of my fake made up world.
Then again dazed I get and enter my dream,
Which often I see and rest all goes dim.
My eyes are open yet I cant see the world,
All I feel is the emptiness as you I hold.
Illusion and reality intertwined as two colors,
No black, no white, only the horrid gray bitter.
I am scared, I am hurt, wont you come rescue me?
Do you even exist? What a fool I have been!
Close to my heart, though you always lay.
As I think of you I silently pray...
If you are an illusion I dont want the reality,
If this is fanatical, then what is sanity?