ok time to type a bit hehe..i mean i wanna contribute too duh!esp seeing so many ppl contributing..inspired bhoyo re kya ;oP hehe...
and plus i fall in the guys gender...so that happens in our gender hoina?(seriously smtimes when we talk about homesexuality..do just guys think of it as guy with a guy..or do gals the same..or think of gal with a gal 1st?)..
anyways from a guy's point of view(btw this guy hai!me!duh!!;oP hehe)most prob might not be the same as other guys(ke garney..we are so similiar..in so many ways..yet so diff :o( ;oP hehe)...but well here it is...
im not really sure if it is really ego or not..i guess ego will def be one main reason(if there is any reason at all;oP hehe)...but takin away ego..
i guess...i too dun really feel tht comfy if u showed me those stuffs..guy and guy ;oP..i mean kissn ..groping..touchn....seen too many(dun think cos i went to check out hai!:@;oP hehe) and am have grown comfy with i think hehe..unless im all by meself ;oP hehe.. ..but those more private things..yap gives me goosebumps or two..just thinkn of it :o| yes i do think!when someone(something) puts the thots on me :o| hehe...yap could be me puttn the thots on meself :oS ..anyways yap..i guess the way we are taught..nature..etc..we are supposed to be guys!..guys mate wit gals..have offspring etc..?is that nature?so when smthing goes against nature..it feels bit weird?(lets not talk about ego!i guess ego makes us think we are the smartest of them all..of all the living things..we think we have common sense..a brain!we can think!blahblah blah..isnt that ego talkin?or is it common sense?;oP hehe)...so i guess...guys are taught when they grow up to be guys? a 'poker'?hehe..(oh if ur followin me..i said that word 'poker' cos im gona use some pokin example ke ;oP ehe)...
but i gues...i do feel weird..when u know..i get poked at..say someone pokes a pencil on me skin..etc..i mean i sure wouldnt mind pokin the pencil on the person ..sounds fun!esp if the person is of the other gender ;oP hehe..(told u brainwashed by the world :oS since birth :oS ;oP hehe)...but the thot of gettn poked at..esp by a guy!:o| hehe..unless he is a tattoist..or piercer..hehe..ok where was i?disregard everything i wrote above..and wat i been writin till now ?;oP hehe
i guess its only normal..if one gets a bit sensitve..to smthing tht is 'suppposed' to be wrong..tht we have be 'taught' to believe?against 'nature'?...tht defines logic?...i mean i dunno wat u like to call humans..(i am one i know :oS ;oPhehe)...i like to call them screwed!;oP hehe..i mean look at it..do we have wings?yet we tried and tried..and now we can fly..wat did ppl 1st say when another person told them of his/her dream to fly?laugh at him/her?label them sick!?hanged and executed them?...i dunno..but wat i do see..and have seen..i dunno..the last thing humans ever will do..is do just one thing..call it curiousity..call it wat u like..they wont stop i tell u!..
thinkin about a guy and a guy doin it hehe..urghh grosses me out..and yet i do think of those things?;o| why?dun label me im a future gay too fast!!i mean if that happens..u can ;o).for now?duh!!im not joinin the other side yet!;oP hehe..and yap when i think of gal and a gal..doesnt seem so gross?why?maybe cos im not a gal..so i get less sensitive about it?(yes take away the ego factor!!for once!;oP hehe)..cos when i think of gals doin it with gals..i dun feel thats me mouth..thats me body..or me arse wahahaha ;oP hehe..get the drift?;oP hehe...
anyways..wats wrong to feel gay?happy!!?;oP hehe..weird it is..thts how the world is..if ppl are feeln gay(happy)..someone does feel not too happy about it..i mean as long as its not forced?why do we have to poke our nose?cos we care?or cos we have a nose to poke!duh!;oP hehe..
from me experience..(not that kinda experience duh!;oP hehe)..had one good fren!lesbo she was..and ppl used to get shocked when they found out she was a she wahahaaha..i mean duh!she was taller than us..had quite a bod too ;o) hehe ..but it was kinda good to have her around..she was just like another guy among us..esp when she talked about her gf wahahahaa..u know guys backbitin their gfs(or the female gender ;oP wahahaha)...
guess im still not that comfy with guy frens who likes guys hehe..i mean duh!..dun really have a close fren whos like that..the closest i gotta know..was few of me fren's housemates..nice ppl they are ;o)..this is generalizin hehe but duh!..they werent much diff from gals that i know of i tell u!(yes lucky for me ..no frens of mine of the female gender wont read this!i hope so they dun!scared of their claws wahahahah ;oP hehe)..well..pretty nice ppl..but me being me..hyprocrite ;o) hehe..used to ask me fren who stayed there..wat if one day..in a drunken stupor..they all came to his bed..and wahahaaha..;oP hehe...duh!just was tryn to irritate me fren i guess..yes i know..stoopin low :oS..but duh!..wat tey dunno wont kill them hoina?;oP hehe..plus i guess havin frens who have experienced being approched with indecent proposals..its kinda fun to make them remember wahahaha ;oP...oh wat can i say?im pretty glad..i have me frens around me ;o)..and am glad gays do seem to have a good choice ;o)..choosin me frens ;o) wahahahah ;oP hehe...im evul i tell u!;oP hehe..who aint re?duh!dun assume!;oP hehe
anyways as they say..live and let live?:oD...homosexuality just aint an act..is it?its an idea!!..and as said in V for Vendetta(anyone watched it?hehe)...Ideas dun get killed!!wahahaaha..yes be scared ppl!if ur scared of ideas!!cos there are tonnes of ideas..that are being thot off..that wont be killed!;oP hehe..
seriously..why hit them..when they dun hit u?are we that scared to be hit?..
homosexuality ta one thing..nepalese community ko ta jhan ke bhannum?wahahaaha..i guess..i just say ...mailey kehi tha chaina!!(saves me from tryn to type..type smthing that i will never ever finish if i was given forever to type ;oP hehe)...
anyways if anyone found this a waste of time to read..well no need to thank me for helpn u waste ur time wahahah ;oP..me?i was enjoyn wastn me time hehe..gotta go back to work :o|...
good day!:oD..
(and yess..do kinda try not to watch the love scenes.."Queers" when i did watch once or twice...when i was bored..when they had nothn else beter on tv hehe..yeah right!..i can kid u..but can i kid meself?just once or twice re?such coincidence?;oP hehe..wat we dun feel is logical just scares us doesnt it?if it doesnt good for u re kya ;o)..if it does..even better re kya ;oP hehe..duh!alls good ni ;o) hehe..enuf!!hhe..)...
