Thanks sitara.. really appreciate your comments.. I have one more.. not good tyai pani really want to express myself!!
Dreams and hopes of a future devine,
Of the one I could call mine,
He would lay me in his loving arm,
And make me feel his love so warm.
I would close my eyes and think of being together,
We were meant to be 'one' forever,
Did not know when, did not know where,
But one day I knew he would be here.
Soft touches, sweet carresses I had on mind,
The one for whom I was destined,
Laughter and happiness in my heart,
Once united, we would never part.
He entered my life like a soothing breeze,
Awakening, refreshing every part of me,
My man, my love was finally here,
Happiness and sorrow we would always share.
The first tears I wept was not meant to be,
What went wrong I coud not know possibly,
But deeper I fell and more I dreamt,
Even when the promises were not kept.
How he slipped away I never knew,
I started to wonder if our love was true,
My heart was lost somewhere between,
It was so ignored that it was never seen.
We had to part and go our own way,
Though I knew you wanted me to stay,
My heart wept for you, it did not want to let go,
What caused the sorrow my heart did not know.
Misery and pain was what remained,
A deep scar was all that we gained,
I kept wondering why did this happen,
Maybe we had always been mistaken.
When you left, you took a part of me,
In every man a part of you I see!
Would they hurt and punish me too?
Why did every face seem like you?
Your loving side though I always remember,
Maybe your love will always matter.
But could we have lived a life full of thorns
Without anyone to soothe our burns?
I console my heart and wipe its tears,
Deep within my heart though, I have a deep fear.
What if your vacant spot I always embrace,
And never again listen to what my heart says?
Can I ever think of a future again
And stay happy with what remains?
I try to reach out to something invisible,
Trying to see if there is anything possible.
But the emptiness engulfs my soul,
All I can feel is a big empty hole.
Why does my heart burn so....
When I know it was right to let you go??
Now love's existence I have started to question,
Cringe at the word when it is mentioned.
Maybe for you I am the betrayer,
But all I can do now is sing a silent prayer.
Oh god let this pain go away,
Please guide me god, please show me the way.
Can I move along, can I ever love again?
Will I ever be able to forget this pain?
I close my eyes and wait for an answer,
But it seems like for god too I don't matter!!