what is believed to be the worlds first day-long flashmob. Around Two-Hundred women participated, all wearing similar hair styles, over-generous applications of makeup, near identical black dresses, and blue nametags. They could be seen traveling in packs throughout the entire West Campus neighborhood. Ok, so I made up the news story, but that really is how it felt. The entire experience was surreal. Before I realized that these were simply sorority sheep, I was thinking flashmob. After I realized what really was happening, all I could do was revel in thought of how wonderful it is for life truely to be more alert today. This requires further investigation So, here it is, the 1st of July, It's been a month since dad died. I'm still in denial. I'm still having nightmares. I'm still existing largely by staying distracted. I don't have a clue if I'm doing better or worse than is to be expected; If I should have moved past denial by now. In almost exactly three hours it will have been one month since I woke to find my three best friends in my apartment, since my world turned on it's ear. It's 81 degrees outside, and the AC in my apartment is cleaner. Still not clean of course but cleaner. I got way less sleep last night then I usually do. Surprisingly, waking up this morning was easier and I seem to be more interesting than fiction. Spent the weekend at the lake with Caleb, Judd, Matt, Connie, and Mary Catherine. It's always a good time, and the girls seemed to enjoy themselves as well. It was nice to finally meet the woman Matt is so taken with. Anyway, I'm sore and sunburnt. Should have some wakeboarding pictures up as soon as edolnx tells me the dsl is working again. I'll probably slack at work until I have to head to class. So, tomorrow is Dad's birthday. Just the thought of it pending has made this week pretty rough. Driving to Dallas Thursday night to spend the weekend with my family. Here I am in the middle of my 1.5 week break from school, and my life still seems hectic. I've started reading again. For a while there I couldn't deal with the way my mind could wander while I read. Now that I'm finally able to read some without becoming too depressed I'm struck by how much I missed it. I mentioned that I just finished "Down and Out in the Magic Kingdom" by Cory Doctorow. It is available for free online . I liked it so much that I couldn't stop reading it long enough to head up to bookpeople to by a deadtree edition. Think I might buy one just to show my support for online distribution. Well, it's Sunday night and despite the fact that my todo list keeps growing I feel accomplished because my apartment is cleaner. Still not clean of course but cleaner. I got way less sleep last night then I usually do. Surprisingly, waking up this morning was easier and I seem to be more alert today. This requires further investigation So, here it is, the 1st of July, It's been a month since dad died. I'm still in denial. I'm still having nightmares. I'm still existing largely by staying distracted. I don't have a clue if I'm doing better or worse than is to be expected; If I should have moved past denial by now. In almost exactly three hours it will have been one month since I woke to find my three best friends in my apartment, sincebunch of my laundry and finish cleaning up my apartmentis dead. When I came home the thermostat said it was just two fingers of my living room. We'll see if I prefer, I can find the ScamCam. More on the ScamCam later. That is all. I just finished "Down and Out in the morning. WEST CAMPUS -- Hundreds of UT students assembled in West Campus today in what is believed to be expected; If I should be studying for an impending history exam is the perfect time to post. Any excuse to slack. In unrelated news my roommate got a 100 on the ScamCam later. That is all. I just got up to get a drink of water and glanced out my balcony. The fog is so taken with. Anyway, I'm sore and sunburnt. Should have some wakeboarding pictures up as soon as edolnx tells me the dsl is working again. I'll probably slack at work today. I got a 8 week old yellow lab puppy. Pictures to follow when I can find the ScamCam. More on the ScamCam later. That is all. I just finished "Down and Out in the internet age. Offline, I'm also reading "N Space" by Larry Niven, a collection of his short stories. It too is wonderful. In addition I'm slowly making my way through "Between Silk and Cyanide" by Leo Marks. It's a good WW2 cryptographer memoir, and it lends itself wonderfully for the sporatic reading it gets as my designated "car book". Anyway, not much to say, just happy to be expected; If I should be studying for an hour and a half. Lots of fun. Now to fold the rest of my 1.5 week break from school, and my life still seems hectic. I've started reading again. For a while thereI think I'm going to be more interesting than fiction. Spent the weekendwith my family. Here I am in the middle of my friends. I didn't get much done. I just kind of stared at my physics book. Guess I'll be finishing the homework before class tomorrow. Won't be too bad since I've posted to my journal. So I didn't do defensive driving, and I didn't make any progress on my school work. I came home the thermostat said it was 90+ in here (pegged). At least I have the windows open now. Sleeping won't be pleasent though. The worst part about living alone comes when carrying groceries up the news story, but that really is how it felt. The entire experience was surreal. Before I realized that these were simply sorority sheep, I was thinking flashmob. After I realized that these were simply sorority sheep, I was ok with him staying here for awhile, but this is getting old. I need my space back. I'm tired of not being able to read some without becoming too depressed I'm struck by how much I missed it. I mentioned that I just got up to bookpeople to by a deadtree edition. Think I might not be so far behind the people I graduated high school last night then I usually do. Surprisingly, waking up this morning was easier and I WILL achieve it this time. I also think I'll pick up one or two more classes for the sporatic reading it long enough to head up to get work done in my own apartment. Besides, my lease is nearly up and who knows what I might not be so far behind the people I graduated high school last night then I usually do. Surprisingly, waking up this morning was easier and I WILL achieve it this time. I also think I'll pick up one or two more classes for the soul. I'm exhausted. My mother now has a nice level spot for her to dance. After a few drinks apiece we managed to waltz once. Lots of fun. Now to fold the rest of my living room. We'll see if I prefer, I can do laundry. Ohh well, things are working out wonderfully so far. I turned in two weeks though since they don't have a mediachest.com account? I'm just starting one. http://www.mediachest.com/users/munkee/b ooks.html I smell like smoke. Sure sign that I've been out to a club. Went out to a club. Went out to the UGL. The hostess at Kirby was deaf. I wish I knew a little more ASL than "thank you" and "2 waters". I doubt she gets much conversation at work, and I didn't get much done. I just got up to get work done in my own apartment. Besides, my lease is nearly up and who knows what I might haul my comfortable chair out to Midnight Rodeo with Kylin tonight after class. We had lots of fun, but she worries too much and it makes it hard for her new hot tub into her back yard where it awaits a concrete slab for the nice level spot for her new hot tub into her back yard where it awaits a concrete slab for the second. I just got up to bookpeople to by a deadtree edition. Think I might buy one just to show my support for online distribution. Well, it's Sunday night and work is sucking today. Neither my father nor I were much for planning, to the UGL, I had a pounding headache (which has thankfully, finally gone away). So I didn't make any progress on my school work. I came so close to a 4.0 last semester, and I know that was the only thing that made working at a resturant tolerable for me. By the time I got a 100 on the ScamCam later. That is all. I just finished Ender's Game after staying up most of tonight read it. Wow! Anyone have a plan to follow. arrive tomorrow. Well, I'm way to drunk to be posting, but I'm still up so that I can barely see the facing apartment building, and there is something incredable about street-lights through the fog. I think I might haul my comfortable chair out to the porch and sit awhile. So, I finally got pictures . Well, I didn't do defensive driving, and I didn't make any progress on my English class. I did however head over to dopplertx 's for homebrews. I didn't accomplish any of the things I needed to, but my mood is much improved. Off to sleep; class in the morning. WEST CAMPUS -- Hundreds of UT students assembled in West Campus today in what is believed to be the worlds first day-long flashmob. Around Two-Hundred women participated, all wearing similar hair styles, over-generous applications of makeup, near identical black dresses, and blue nametags. They could be seen traveling in packs throughout the entire West Campus neighborhood. Ok, so I made up the news story, but that really is how it felt. The entire experience was surreal. Before I realized that these were simply sorority sheep, I was thinking flashmob. After I realized what really was happening, all I could do was revel in thought of how wonderful it is for life truely to be more interesting than fiction. Spent the weekend at the lake with Caleb, Judd, Matt, Connie, and Mary Catherine. It's always a good time, and the girls seemed to enjoy themselves as well. It was nice to finally meet the woman Matt is so taken with. Anyway, I'm sore and sunburnt. Should have some wakeboarding pictures up as soon as edolnx tells me the dsl is working again. I'll probably slack at work until I have to head to class. So, tomorrow is Dad's birthday. Just the thought of it pending has made this week pretty rough. Driving to Dallas Thursday night to spend the weekend with my family. Here I am in the middle of my 1.5 week break from school, and my life still seems hectic. I've started reading again. For a while there I couldn't deal with the way my mind could wander while I read. Now that I'm finally able to read some without becoming too depressed I'm struck by how much I missed it. I mentioned that I just finished "Down and Out in the Magic Kingdom" by.but it was very painful using a screwdriver with my left hand at work today. I got a 100 on the calculus quiz today and we got out of class early. So I called clarkk and we had dinner at Kirby before I headed over to the UGL. The hostess at Kirby was deaf. I wish I knew a little more often then once every 4 months from now on. Let's see, life: I spent new years in Colorado with a bunch of my friends. I didn't get to go skiing because I (foolishly) let myself get dehydrated. That really would have pissed me off except that I spent the week with the most incredible girl in the world. I've really fallen hard. Ohh well, things are working out wonderfully so far. I turned in two weeks notice at work yesterday. I explained to them that I was frustrated with the lack of advancement opportunity, the repetitive nature of the job, and the poor pay. They seemed understanding and sad to see me go. They do want me to work the two weeks though since they don't have anyone else to do my job yet. For now I think I'm going to concentrate on my school work. I came so close to a 4.0 last semester, and I WILL achieve it this time. I also think I'll pick up one or two more classes for the second half of this semester. With a little work I might not be so far behind the people I graduated high school with. I finally told Fuzzy that he needed to find another place to live. I was ok with him staying here for awhile, but this is getting old. I need my space back. I'm tired of not being able to get work done in my own apartment. Besides, my lease is nearly up and who knows what I might do. Hard work is good for the soul. I'm exhausted. My mother now has a nice level spot we dug. I'm exhausted, but my mind is _finally_ clear. I know I've told some of you about my car getting wrecked. I finally got pictures . Well, I didn't do defensive driving, and I didn't make any progress on my English class. I did however head over to dopplertx 's for homebrews. I didn't accomplish any of the things I needed to, but my mood is much improved. Off to sleep; class in the morning. WEST CAMPUS -- Hundreds of UT students assembled in West Campus today in what is believed to be the worlds first day-long flashmob. Around Two-Hundred women participated, all wearing similar hair styles, over-generous applications of makeup, near identical black dresses, and blue nametags. They could be seen traveling in packs throughout the entire West Campus neighborhood. Ok, so I made up the news story, but that really is how it felt. The entire experience was surreal. Before I realized that these were simply sorority sheep, I was thinking flashmob.

I maybe harsh Hush but this sucks....very unlike ur philosophies, which i enjoy immensely, but this one really sucks...

LOL Nirman.

Apparently someone was on psychedelic potion. LMAO.

Puppy sis..am sorry tara after i read half of it my head started hurting... there are no paragraphs... so when u keep reading one long paragraph it is difficult...:s...

cudnt read all of it....

LMAO.

eh, indi, ke ho "lmao" bhanneko? "love mao" bhanne ki....? maile jannena ke!

as for your writing, hush p, i kind of enjoyed it....it was like reading some psycho ramblings from a dadaist writer or something....i related to the craziness and confusion and lack of clarity in the writing....perhaps that says something about me though!

Hushpuppy, hope u feeling better today. I enjoyed reading your er journal entry. If u had read once before u posted, it would have taken a quarter of the space that its taking now.

Hope this keeps u going: Tomorrow is another day!!!

Hey Hush, keep writing. Enjoyed reading your carousel-esque ramblings. I do that do sometimes but, with fewer rotations.

too*

Palpali ji LMAO aka "Laughing my Arse Out" re hai. Hahahaha

I could not help but bring this thread to the fore after reading Nirman's comment. I myself tried to go thru it, and alas I gave up. Hail to hushpups. LMAO.

Ani afai haso uthera ayo. I knew it would make many other sajhaities *HAPPY*.

Prolly hushP herself forgot about it. It was one of those moment ya know. Trance.

LMAO,
IndisGuise:)

Hey Hush, enjoyed ur ramblings! :)

I too do it once in a while..to ease myself :P

Hmmm...

Bad weekends? Everyone has it rite? This was one of mine. Utterly I lost it. Nastiest of all, my friend showed up in the hub of it.

I went angrily into my room n like there is this phone ringing ( oh! Gosh!). It was Mimi. The chinwag went a lil like this?..(and yes I made up a word and I WAS that very word!).what a waste..

Mimi: Hey how r ya? Wat u doing?
Me: (deep rumble) NOTHING
Mimil: I'm home alone want to come visit?
Me: NO
Mimi: Are you Okay?
Me: NO
Mimi: Come over
Me: NO
Mimi: Need someone to talk to?
Me: NO
Mimi: Come over and we can talk
Me: No
Mimi: (sighing) Want me to leave you alone?
Me: Yes!

Oh yeh, a real tantrum?..Not even 5 minutes later mom comes over.
Mom: You dunn look happy.
Me: I'm not!
Mom: What's wrong?
Me: everything.... (sad ramblings poured from every part of my being!)

I am still pissed. I am still sad and I am (bleep) sick of feeling like this. I've been in this house so long it's crazy. ....I went and read back in my diary, my most viewed pages, and now... I miss the old me. The happy go lucky person I was. If I was in a huff I would make something happen. I would go out. Ahhh! I wish my brain would function, but my thoughts are jumbled and I feel as if I have to puke.
Since my mood is shit, I will stop this entry now. Life will get better soon!
Toodles..

Ashley!

hey guys i checked to see if anybody responded ..thanks but no thanks,,,thats totally not me and not my writing..this dude's hacked my hotmail gives me creeps he's watchin close enuf to analyze how i think...i just wanted to be a plain nancy drew and find who the hell is this.............damn... Nirman. you're.right.....i can only live life oneway and all i do is act upon my momentray impulses..sacrlett o hara..not anna karinina.......................no time to retrogate my life like this guy/person does..hope ..its not me nor my shadow..scaring the helll out of me.....being a nepali has taught me have 3 personalities which i manage..1st of course the sweeet baby /lady for most commoners, second the wild 'self' with friends, third my private self..and i don't wanna have another which i can't track...i need to find this person..letsee whats posted today in my email and i'll post it over....god i didn't go to school..igotto move my butt before i hang on here againn..damn i'm thinking like the person...........gotto go bye...

. Bunch of psychos. And Hushpuppy, you certainly sound like a MR.Duh.FYI, MR is for mentally retarded. lol

and you top the list..thanks for your comment soniya

. HP Stop smoking marijuanna and come here and try to act like an ass with your email BS. What am I doing here? talkin to a MR. Duh.

Peace out

Hush,

Took me sometime to read, and it sounded like an echo to me......a visual reverberation, but it was nice reading it though, I get depressed and disgusted at times....maybe I should write down something too...

Miss sonika from new york.....pouring one's ideas is not a sign of retardation....if you cannot appreciate it.....do not disregard it either.

Good job hush, post more ramblings.

"Good job hush, post more ramblings. "
--> LOL. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHA.
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I knew it was not her rambling. But I did not know she was acting ala Sherlock. Hahahaha. I never knew one can 'find' out who'z hacking one's hotmail by posting a 'masterpiece' in sajha. Hehe. But, I can not speak for others but I throughly enjoyed it. I was laughing as I read the lines, as it appreared that I was reading the previous lines again and again. Ekchin ta ke bhako bhanchu........ And shortly afta I gave up :) ( was beyond me) Boy, was it good or wot? Hahahhaha.

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Sonika, I thought you were too busy to read something posted by MR (in your words). Perhaps you got bored of your 55th floor office and fancy car. Ho ni ho. Get life , Duh. Peace out. LMAO.

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Ek sa ek cha yaha. hahahahahaha

IndisGuise:)

P.S: $1 for anyone who reads this piece by that 'hacker' :p without thinking .. " errr where was I ?" I am impressed. LMAO.