hi guys greetings,
I justy wanna know what U guys think about online love??
I know I really sound stupid here when I say that I am in love with a girl whom I havent even seen in pictures. but one of her friend told me that shes preety ...heheheh
This girl I met her online month ago and we really shared lotta things she know everything about me and I do hers she's so caring n lovin I havent seen her though but when ever I close my eyes n think about her I feel like she's close to me..
I dont know whY ? how ? or when I got this kinda feelings towards her.. the first time we met she showed me couppla her poems n the second time she just left me without sain a thing and I got such a bad feeling that I wrote a stupid poem ( in nepali) hehe
check this out:-
Delicated 2 mysterious-keti (till that time she didnt told me her name)
kina reesako hola ma sanga???
maile ta kehi bujhna sakina..
timi sanga mero nata kehi thiyena,
sayad tehai bhayera maile timi lai rokna sakina,
tara man le bhancha kehi ta cha,
jo maile timi lai bhulauna sakina,
timi sanga dui char kura garera man lai bujhauthe,
abba ta khai tyo pani huna sakina,
man ma hajaar prasna haru chodera gayau,
jass ko uttar maile pauna sakina,
kina?? kina yesto gareki holin ?
kehi bhaneko jasto pani ta lagdaina ,
feri kina??kina?
sayad hamroo biswas ko dor nai kamzor theayo ,
jo maile timi lai bandhera rakhna sakina...................Ajay
And from here I really got strange kinda feelings like I just wanna keep on thinkin about her and from here I use hang online waitin for her to come...
We use to chat like 4 , 5 hours a day on the mic and eachday I was gettin closer to her there was somthin new .
check this one I wrote this when I was thinkin about her just felt like writtin what's on my mind
and here comes again another stupid poem from the deapth of my heart hehehehe
Is this Love??
what's goin on?
Am I in love?
since I have met U
I feel the sense of hope,
I have'nt seen you though,
But I can feel you inside,
Since u came in my life,
I have been more alive,
Whenever I think about you,
It makes me feel so relief
Even when I am all alone& feeling cold,
I am smilling all alone,
Cause you are in my thought's
When ever I am alone in my room,
I just keep thinking about you,
I never felt this bad,
When sombody knock's at my door,
Cause I just wanna be alone in my dreamworld,
It's you girl that I was waiting for,
But I can't show you my feeling's
Because of the wall,
Since I have known you,
I wanna know you more & more,
When I am with you ,
I feel like I am in a mysterious world,
And I see notthing but you & only you,
I donno why I feel like ur being true ,
It's amazing the way I trusted you,
You share your thought's & I tell you mine,
The eviroment around me was never this fine,
Day by day I am getting close to you,
And everytime I find somthing new in you.....( 2 Be continued) Cause I really dont know how far it will go...
And I showed her this poem and told her that I love you on valentines day she said notthin on that day..
later after couppla days she told me that she dont have that kinda feelings for me & she sweard on her mom that she dont love me ...but I never felt bad for what she said.cause I really got a strong feeling that she is the one , and one day she will love me too when she will come to know how much I love her..and see we still see eachother and notthin changed we still talk on the mic for hours n we are Muchmore closer than we were .
she called me this mornin but i didnt picked up the phone cause I felt like why to waste her bucks for notthin and than later I saw her offline messages it was somthin like this:-
I just called to say that I wont be able to come nline on thursday just called to say you this but U didnt answerd ur mobile,,,and eat well n all.......heheheh she cares a lot about me.. I really love her more than anything else in the world..she's really the sweetest girl I ever met ( somtimes bitter)heheh
This days I am missin her a lot..and when ever I think deeply about her I feel like there a fire burnin deep inside me and I cant help myself...
somtimes I feel like cryin yaar cant wait to hold her in my arms...
wish I was good enough to fit in her arms....
ohhh no gotta stop here cause my storys never gonna end...hehehehe
sorry yaar guys hope I didnt bored U...
Ok guys gotta go
you guys always take care...
............ Love you all................
..........................byeee
......................AjaY...